Qing ming shi ji yu fen fen,
lu shang xing ren yi duan hun,
jie wen jiu jia he chu you,
mu tong yao zi xin hua chun.

I went to chua chu kang cementry yesterday with my paternal side of the family. To pay our respects to my grandfather, who died when i was two years old. According to my parents, i was the only baby he held in his arms... He never carried any of my cousins, none of my other 8 cousins who were in this world when he was still alive... This was the first time i actually paid interest to our customs, i realised there were three names engraved on the tombstone; my grandmother's, my grandfather's and one unknown name. It turned out to be my other grandmother's name. Shocking, i lived for sixteen years not realising my grandfather had another wife. Ashamed, i had never noticed another name on the tombstone for the past fourteen times i went to visit my grandfather's grave. As we sat chatting, and clearing the area around the grave, my aunt told me stories about my other grandmother. It turned out that she led a very pathetic life, and i felt so sorry for her. She was really pretty, a beauty of her times. After marrying my grandfather, she had to be confined at home for the first four months, it was a custom in their village. They were happy together, everyone congratulated my grandfather for marrying such a beauty as wife, yet such happiness is short lived. The japanese army came around the second month of their marriage, my other grandmother was so frightened upon hearing such news that she fell ill, and my grandfather's family refused to hire a doctor to see to her illness.

She died in the end. She dint even get to see her family for the last time before she died, just because she was not allowed out of the house, and neither did my grandfather's family inform her family about her death.

It was saddening. Really, i wondered how would it be like if she was still alive... I would have another grandmother to dote on me... Haha, how selfish can that thought be...

Went for dinner with Shirley( feels so weird calling her shirley) Bean, Yan, Ah Wan and Aminah at Greenridge Pizza Hut. The waitress was an ideal bad example of the new government project GEMS. However, for the sake what's left of our school's reputation, we decided not to be rude to her too. It does take two hands to clap. So we ordered food and gossiped as rampant as a Brahman bull on steroids, laughing as loudly as we liked, we had no care and concern for the names we spoke. We did as we pleased, and we let our guard down, we forgot the walls have ears too. Maybe, i am just being paranoid, no one we knew was actually there except for ourselves. (: I am not the gossip headquarters for nothing. I have my bodyguards to make sure the incoming information is kept totally safe.

I am watching campus superstar finals now. I have nothing much to comment on... my Clara is not in the finals... Zhiyang's kiss goodbye it not bad, but i think my rendition is better... Teresa dresses like a cow with red ribbons for her second song... Renfred just cannot sing please....

(and i tell you, i hate the way i have to type so formally with good english, whalau, kill so many brain cells just to think what to write ok. zzz. waste so much time also... for my olevels, i should preservere....)