Sin
): Its a sin to blog so many times a week lah. Ok, so the weekend hasnt been really slack. JUST A LITTLE SLACK. ok, maybe a lot slack. i mean all i did was study nutrition and drugs and erm like 1/3 of population? and ok a little ss here and there zzz. okok, i know im wasting my weekend but. HEY I FINALLY MOVED MY LAZY BODY TO COME ONLINE AND DO SOME SERIOUS RESEARCH ON ART. :D
nafa's making me really inspired nowadays, and my desire to want to get into that campus is so growing. Lao shi's been saying my art works are improving :D and im pretty pleased with it, really. cause i finally understood the reason behind gd artworks... yay! and my mum says i can go learn chinese painting nxt year... cause nafa dont take old and part time students :/
okok, anywayy, i finally dusted away all that dust bunnies on my 7 piece study, and i found my first scratched and kiddy and abandoned study in a corner. I wrote pretty much stuff on it and all that feeling suddenly came back. you know, all that crap about wanting one more ribbon and why did i do my sunflower in the first place. It all hit me, kinda hard, (and tahts that invisibile force that forced me off my chair while stoning on population to the comp...) and the feeling now's so much not hate. all that hate sorta dissolved. ok, maybe it wasnt even soluble in the first place, it like sublimed? like now, all that i regret is not fighting hard for what i wanted. like not being braver than a lion and really really settled what ignited the problem in the first place. It made me realise how much pain ive brought to myself in that past like, one year of trauma. (ok, maybe some drama cause i was too obstinate..) but well... all thats left has gone away right? and there's nothing there for me to prove... (: one reason why i love jet.
okokok craaap nostalgia aside, embrace the grown up me man! now i will officially give myself a ribbon (actually i stole the rest of the roll of ribbon home. but shhh. thats why teh sec 3s cant find ribbons in the haven... ) to prasie myself for finally letting when has been a part of history go, it just serves as a big big big big, HUGE learning journey for me. i really realised a lot a lot from it lah. :D now its even more significant because ive converted my entire journey of overcoming my spastic psycological problem into my art piece. my JI TUO! ( SEE CAI HONG! i know my chinese well ok.) so, as much as irritatingly i would wanna say, i can give myself that ribbon, but what i hope is still to rightfully strip someone off her post and i take it back. you know, im alwasy this lawful citizen. I DONT JAYWALK!!! :D
but hey hey heeyy! everything's positive now lah. wah so touching eh, maybe i shld publish a book eh, you think anyone wld buy? and i could title it "beixi's psycho roller-coaster emotional ride with bad grammer attached!" ahahah, OK, NOT FUNNY.
LOVES EUUU PEOPLE! hahaahah. HAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA. AHHAAHHAHAHA.
ohkay. BYES BYES! HAHAAHAHAHA.
whatever man, so lame...
): Its a sin to blog so many times a week lah. Ok, so the weekend hasnt been really slack. JUST A LITTLE SLACK. ok, maybe a lot slack. i mean all i did was study nutrition and drugs and erm like 1/3 of population? and ok a little ss here and there zzz. okok, i know im wasting my weekend but. HEY I FINALLY MOVED MY LAZY BODY TO COME ONLINE AND DO SOME SERIOUS RESEARCH ON ART. :D
nafa's making me really inspired nowadays, and my desire to want to get into that campus is so growing. Lao shi's been saying my art works are improving :D and im pretty pleased with it, really. cause i finally understood the reason behind gd artworks... yay! and my mum says i can go learn chinese painting nxt year... cause nafa dont take old and part time students :/
okok, anywayy, i finally dusted away all that dust bunnies on my 7 piece study, and i found my first scratched and kiddy and abandoned study in a corner. I wrote pretty much stuff on it and all that feeling suddenly came back. you know, all that crap about wanting one more ribbon and why did i do my sunflower in the first place. It all hit me, kinda hard, (and tahts that invisibile force that forced me off my chair while stoning on population to the comp...) and the feeling now's so much not hate. all that hate sorta dissolved. ok, maybe it wasnt even soluble in the first place, it like sublimed? like now, all that i regret is not fighting hard for what i wanted. like not being braver than a lion and really really settled what ignited the problem in the first place. It made me realise how much pain ive brought to myself in that past like, one year of trauma. (ok, maybe some drama cause i was too obstinate..) but well... all thats left has gone away right? and there's nothing there for me to prove... (: one reason why i love jet.
okokok craaap nostalgia aside, embrace the grown up me man! now i will officially give myself a ribbon (actually i stole the rest of the roll of ribbon home. but shhh. thats why teh sec 3s cant find ribbons in the haven... ) to prasie myself for finally letting when has been a part of history go, it just serves as a big big big big, HUGE learning journey for me. i really realised a lot a lot from it lah. :D now its even more significant because ive converted my entire journey of overcoming my spastic psycological problem into my art piece. my JI TUO! ( SEE CAI HONG! i know my chinese well ok.) so, as much as irritatingly i would wanna say, i can give myself that ribbon, but what i hope is still to rightfully strip someone off her post and i take it back. you know, im alwasy this lawful citizen. I DONT JAYWALK!!! :D
but hey hey heeyy! everything's positive now lah. wah so touching eh, maybe i shld publish a book eh, you think anyone wld buy? and i could title it "beixi's psycho roller-coaster emotional ride with bad grammer attached!" ahahah, OK, NOT FUNNY.
LOVES EUUU PEOPLE! hahaahah. HAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA. AHHAAHHAHAHA.
ohkay. BYES BYES! HAHAAHAHAHA.
whatever man, so lame...
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